\u00cen plin\u0103 zi, am fost brusc cople\u0219it de \u00eentuneric. Nu i-am presim\u021bit deloc apropierea, dar deodat\u0103 totul p\u0103rea s\u0103 se \u00eentoarc\u0103 \u00eempotriva mea. Ceilal\u021bi veneau dup\u0103 mine \u0219i chiar dup\u0103 via\u021ba mea – cel pu\u021bin a\u0219a am b\u0103nuit. Via\u021ba \u00eens\u0103\u0219i se \u00eentorsese \u00eempotriva mea \u0219i nici nu \u0219tiam de ce.<\/p>\n
M-a cuprins o \u00eendoial\u0103 cople\u0219itoare, \u0219i am fost asaltat\u0103 de g\u00e2nduri \u00eentunecate. Certitudinile mele construite cu r\u0103bdare au fost subminate. Sentimentul profund al prezen\u021bei din spatele tuturor lucrurilor era acum un mister pentru mine, \u0219i f\u0103r\u0103 nicio \u00eendrumare am fost aruncat \u00eenapoi la mine \u00eensumi. Scufundat la fundul existen\u021bei mele \u0219i la mila for\u021belor \u00eentunecate ale sor\u021bii, m-am \u00eentrebat ce oare, \u00een numele cerului, trebuie s\u0103 fac?<\/p>\n
Dar acesta nu era tocmai pericolul care m\u0103 a\u0219tepta? Fiind tentat s\u0103 reac\u021bionez \u00een grab\u0103, pentru a aborda imediat adversitatea viitoare; ap\u0103r\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 impulsiv cu toat\u0103 puterea \u00eempotriva oric\u0103rei calamit\u0103\u021bi care mi-ar ie\u0219i \u00een cale; abord\u00e2nd hot\u0103r\u00e2t cauzele \u0219i lupt\u00e2nd puternic.<\/p>\n
Dar reac\u021bion\u00e2nd \u00een acest fel, nu tocmai a\u0219 \u00eenr\u0103ut\u0103\u021bi lucrurile? Rezist\u00e2nd, am \u00eent\u0103rit for\u021bele \u00eentunecate care se hr\u0103neau cu acea energie. \u0218i toate g\u00e2ndurile mele involuntare au format o re\u021bea \u00een care am devenit tot mai \u00eencurcat\u2026. p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd, \u00een cele din urm\u0103, o panic\u0103 general\u0103 m-a paralizat complet. Am fost complet blocat. Metaforic, nu mai puteam s\u0103-mi v\u0103d m\u00e2na \u00eenaintea ochilor, \u0219i m\u0103 sim\u021beam speriat \u00een \u00eentuneric. Nici eu nu puteam vedea c\u0103, cu fiecare \u00eencercare de a m\u0103 elibera, m\u0103 blocam \u0219i mai mult.<\/p>\n
Deci, nu avea cum s\u0103 existe un sf\u00e2r\u0219it al \u00eentregii mele rezisten\u021be, \u00een timp ce m\u0103 str\u0103duiam s\u0103 renun\u021b \u00een mod voluntar la autoconservare. Mi\u0219c\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 ca o trestie \u00eendoit\u0103 \u00een condi\u021bii meteorologice de v\u00e2nt, am r\u0103mas jos p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd furtuna a disp\u0103rut. Eram f\u0103r\u0103 ap\u0103rare \u00eempotriva acestei mari for\u021be, \u0219i aparent f\u0103r\u0103 un rol semnificativ \u00een propria mea via\u021b\u0103. Doar am privit c\u0103tre \u201cmun\u021bii de unde ar veni ajutorul meu”, cum se spune \u00een acel vechi psalm.<\/p>\n
\u0218tiam c\u0103, chiar dac\u0103 momentul era incert, ajutorul va veni \u00eentotdeauna. A trebuit s\u0103 continui s\u0103 am \u00eencredere \u00een el \u2013 la \u00eenceput, poate doar sub forma gra\u021biei de a m\u0103 preda circumstan\u021belor pe care a trebuit s\u0103 le tr\u0103iesc; apoi, poate ca o nou\u0103 perspectiv\u0103 asupra a ceea ce mi s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat, \u0219i de ce eu am creat-o; \u0219i \u00een final, ca putere spiritual\u0103 a centrului, care a umplut fiin\u021ba sufletului meu \u0219i m-a ridicat mai presus de toat\u0103 lupta mea pentru via\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00cen cele din urm\u0103, mi-a ar\u0103tat calea spre unde pot fi eliberat de mine, unde nu mai exista prosperitate, nici adversitate, nimic care m-ar amenin\u021ba \u0219i nici un eu care ar putea fi amenin\u021bat. Noaptea trecuse \u0219i diminea\u021ba era \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it aici.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":923,"featured_media":7076,"template":"","meta":{"_acf_changed":false},"tags":[],"category_":[110109],"tags_english_":[],"class_list":["post-89964","logon_article","type-logon_article","status-publish","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category_-spiritsoul-ro"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/logon.media\/ro\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/logon_article\/89964","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/logon.media\/ro\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/logon_article"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/logon.media\/ro\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/logon_article"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/logon.media\/ro\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/923"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/logon.media\/ro\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/7076"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/logon.media\/ro\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=89964"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/logon.media\/ro\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=89964"},{"taxonomy":"category_","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/logon.media\/ro\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/category_?post=89964"},{"taxonomy":"tags_english_","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/logon.media\/ro\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags_english_?post=89964"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}